m sick of having to settle prefect jobs. i do what i can, but i do need cooperation sometimes. when i didn't have any, i feel the burden pressing on me. it's worst than having to do serious studying while juggling around extra curricular activities. it's so form4-ish! and i wanna say, i do hope someone can do something. i know i can be useless at times, but i m quite convinced i have job phobias now. what i gotto do now is to settle my fears and face my problems. help much?
i m also getting myself into wrong situations nowadays. i know i shouldn't, but still, i cannot control myself when girls hit around specific. it's just me i notice, i m so childish at times, i choose to suppress my feelings and hold it in. i choose not to handle these situations and thus, ignoring and avoiding.
i need to get a hold of myself before i truly lost it. i had a slight disagreement with my mother today. i should have been more considerate sometimes, having my mom to deal with so many problems already. but also, i had actually forgotten the art of communicating... too bad for me.
so i had self reflected my bad acts and behavior for today. rest assure, i m fine and i will bounce back. i remember my goal, to improve in my chemistry and math! so i will continue to work hard, to be a better person in general and less emo. signing off, just me~