Friday, July 30, 2010

Sky

Hey you there
I wanna ask a question
You are looking at the sky
When you hold the camera in your hands
What picture would you take?
*****
Would you snap the big blue space
Soft calming and soothing blue?
Or would you snap the magnificent clouds
Rolls and rolls of mighty white signifying the power within?
I say
You would choose the part where the blues and whites meet
Where beauty is at it's most
A bit of the cheeky and wild side matching the great cool surround.
*****
I believe life is so.
Human is made perfect by being imperfect sometimes.
It's ok to not be first place
It's alright to fail
But the important part is
Making everything counts!
Make everyday a something that is worthwhile
Making you a someone that is imperfectly perfect...
YOU!
Love Life
^^
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Wednesday, July 28, 2010

A PA lesson that made me realize THIS

If you had the time to read this passage, please do.
I think you guys would think twice after this.

What is this?
It's the story my Pengajian Am teacher told me during PA tuition today
What about?
Human trafficking

It's just a small story
but it made me realize the contrast in different levels of society
and i feel so intellect and yet idiotic at the same time
It's like I've just step out of my area of vision
and entered the not so beautiful world
-which existed for like centuries-
HOW COME I NOW ONLY KNOW WAN???

Okay okay.
Story story
Do you ever notice those guys around your taman?
Foreign workers?
Yea, they come in varieties!
Indons, Philippines, Myanmars, India
and the HYBRIDS...
Our impression of them is?
Loheng group of peoples,
they cause way much trouble then their contributions,
dangerous and cheap labor,
no self-worth or does not has the right to...
(ps, seriously, not my POV, these are taken from the norm..)
BUT
i think we should hear from them for a change
why is Indonesia's boycotting Malaysia by not letting more maid to work here?
why is there so many prostituting in KL?
why is there crimes committed by these immigrants?
why we can not understand their motive of their moves?
eg, maid wanting to commit suicide with the baby? (yesterday's newspaper)
***
ACTUALLY
Most of them had a sad stories to their arrival
Most of them are cheated by their agents
eg, you pay the boat fee, come msia work lah, you can earn at least rm400 per month leh~
reasoning: if converted to their currency?
eg, you wanna be a translator? msia needing these people now, we meet you at airport~
reasoning: an intellect job in a developing country?
So many of these lousy sweet talks to trick them
Somemore they are not highly educated
When you are short of money and in need to raise a big family
When you are desperate for any job
What would you do?
Given the nice payment and stuff
It does sound promising
So? GO LOR....
***
How to go?
By midnight boats, 1 boat approx 100 people
The orang tengah will standby by the beach
if got police they will call the captain
to inform them not to anchor their boat at the port
so how?
setengah jalan say reached their destination
asked them to walk to bay themselves
some are swept by undersea currents or tripped
so lives are taken JUST LIKE THAT
remember the case where dozens of dead bodies are found by the beachside near Johor?
(if m not wrong)
yea, that's the one
If not by boat, they also can come by land transport
Vans or lorries fulled of immigrants
50 or 60 over in a lorry
approx 100 in a truck
some even hide under the driver seats!
They came without their VISAs
so problems arise when they reach their "destination".....
***
Some of them are taken to ulu (rural areas) places
Instructed to build those papan shelter
and live there...
They are usually threatened
If you don't work, the owners would report to the police and they would be jailed and sent back
No money gained.
If you move about or out of that rural area, the police would catch you, with no VISAs
then you would be sent back again.
Some of them would then take the opportunity to sell them food, daily stuff and medication
eg, Panadol is priced at rm2 per packet,
theirs is rm2 per capsule.......
Some of the female immigrants are brought to a room and locked
drugged
and forced to prostitute
if not, they would be beaten or worst...
Hmm~
I've heard some had to entertain a total of 50 customers per night...
Where is humanity????
Some of them are drugged to sleep
only to wake up with their organs (kidney usually) stolen...
What to do?
Not only like that,
those employers would not pay them to save their cost and expenditures
they would promise them their money at the end of their contract,
only to report to the police themselves right before payday arise,
so they don't have to pay them anything.
Wth...
***
Sometimes, we really do understand why they acted so inhumanly
they were tortured physically and mentally
day after day after day
and it's like living hell for them
when they ran away,
when they write little notes of help,
when they acted violently...
sometimes it's a defense thing.
I would if i were treated like that~
***
What i feel about this?
It's like a sudden realization,
while i was busy dealing with teen stuff
committees, friend fights, some on and off homework troubles
I didn't pay attention to the world around me
People are suffering daily and yet we are worrying bout math
(sorry teacher ): )
I feel anger but somehow helpless
It's like the global warming thing
We know it's happening and yet there are still people polluting the environment
What can we do?
I think i can start by telling you, you whom are reading this now..
By creating awareness around,
to tell people
Eh, look around, it's not like you're the center of attention
Please do SOMETHING to help these people.....
I know we couldn't stop human trafficking to the point of zero
but still, we can make a difference,
lower the numbers
help those people in need
instead of turning a cold shoulder....





Sunday, July 25, 2010

我喜歡, 不我愛

nice song to intro! ^^
我喜歡, 不我愛

作詞:嚴爵
作曲:嚴爵

我喜歡妳的眼 看著我的眼
我喜歡妳的臉 貼著我的臉

我喜歡妳的手 牽著我的手
我喜歡妳的口 吻著我的口
時間在改變 妳不要改變

因為我很愛妳 不想要妳放棄愛情
尤其這段得來不易
我愛妳 真的是很愛妳 所以想
就這樣繼續愛下去

時間在改變 妳不要改變

因為我很愛妳 不想要妳放棄愛情

尤其這段得來不易
我愛妳 真的是很愛妳 所以想
就這樣繼續愛下去

因為我很愛妳 不想要妳放棄愛情
尤其這段得來不易
我愛妳 真的是很愛妳 所以想
就這樣繼續愛下去

因為我很愛妳 不想要妳放棄愛情
尤其這段得來不易
我愛妳 真的是很愛妳 所以想
就這樣繼續愛下去

Thursday, July 22, 2010

给两位要好朋友的一封信

我还是我
没什么改变
只是这次
我为了自己
做了个决定
~
割爱
是我最不擅长的
因为往往
习惯了现在的生活
常常告诉自己
没必要改变它吧
但事情却不是这样的
.....
我在寻找
自己的梦
自己的天空
自己的自由
我在寻找
他的共鸣
一个肯定
一个决定
~
我在尝试接受
别人给我的眼光
是憎恨?
是绝望?
是毫无关系的一个外人?
其实
我也会脆弱
我也会伤心
我还是会坚强
顽固的倔强
因为
我没办法了
只能继续走下去
~
我会伤到你
我知道
我会背叛你
我也知道
我会让你失望
我更知道
但我真的没有对策
没有所谓解决方案
~
对不起
我说过了
我也感到羞耻
没用
但决定已做了
要拉回来
又会失去自尊
我只能
这样让你们讨厌
至少你们可以更舒服
我愿意
~
毅献,印森
这个舞蹈
看样子
我不能和你们对跳了
对不起
~

Saturday, July 17, 2010

Soul Searching (Myself)

It's a sunday~
And m making changes to my life!
~
Review:
(what had i done successfully)
* Manage to overcome my nail bitting bad habit (yeah!)
* Manage to sleep under fan rather then aircond (saving the earth!)
* Manage to improve the majority of my subjects in F6 (even MUET!)
* Manage to cut on9 time (which is something m really proud of)
* Manage to make some new friends (smirk)
* Manage to exercise regularly
~
Beautiful list ain't it?
Haha, all of them which m proud of.
M changing for the better and i know it.
Now, i have a plan.
A simple plan which needs a lot of hard-work.
It's time to really stop most of my activity and to really STUDY.
~
Plans:
* I had already set up my study plans with my best bud, YeeShin
(2 weeks to cover most of the syllabus)
* Make myself exercise REGULARLY
(it's important for my health, this time, M gonna take charge of it!)
* Achieve higher standards in musical means
(target, to be like my teacher)
~
I am still trying to find myself through these steps
It's not easy, but it's meaningful.
I want a better life.
I want something more.
I want respect.
and I wan people to see me.
I live my life MY WAY
I will continue to see the world through my eyes
and appreciate what i have now.
I know some of us are struggling to live,
which makes me aware that I am still healthy,
I can still walk I can still talk and I can still love.
~
Goals:
* Wow people during 8/8 concert at Yamaha Music School, Jln Kulim
* Get SUPERB results in my Trials exam
* Get 3.85 and above in STPM
* Find me myself
(Kindda hard to define, m trying, hehe.)
* Embrace life and love life
(to my family, i do love you, all of you.
to my friends, i treat you with sincerity and care, all of you.
to the animals and environment, i will make a better future for nature.
to peace, i will find it for me, my loved ones and the world)
~
I had a great dream and great aim.
I maybe small (and short for that matter, haha)
I wanna make a change.
Let's wait and see.
Go Wendy!

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

A cool video to share!

This is a video i recorded during my last Genting trip.
It was in Genting outdoor!
Great performance by students of the KL district!
I love it!
video

i.am.free~!

kays, the exam is over!
yeah!
Well, the results might not be as good as i expected
(math really lousy this time, totally out lar.)
(but I have high hopes for my chem tis time*smirk)
but who cares?
at least, i'll have more space for improvement NEXT time.
Hohoho~
So, I am so free!
I don't know why,
i have a strong nagging ache to SING!
I wanna sing my lungs, my heart and a few other organs out!
I'm going to be involved in the YAMAHA official opening on the 8th August.
Doing some medleys on classical songs and jazzy songs.
It's still in progress but I am so going to Break A Leg!
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Huuu~
I wanna indulge in senseless entertainment until my next exam!
and i promise i will not be as busy as before.
Plan nicely and really go for the goal.
I'm just saying lar.
Haha~
But of course, i would work hard!
I love my life.
Signing off, ME ME ME!!!

Thursday, July 8, 2010

今天起 by 郭静

This is a song i really like. Maybe you guys can listen to it? ^^
Hope cha like it!
关掉收音机 显得冷清
想传讯问候 你的最近
我其实早就 没事情
纯粹一句的关心 当作朋友的贴心

我可以一个人看电影
放假不必你的提醒
有时周末泡咖啡厅
我还是像从前爱旅行 虽然少了你背影

今天起 我不需你的鼓励
你和谁在一起 都没关系
我的心 不在你那里
今天起 让回忆一贫如洗
我的日子里 多了些氧气
眼泪都 还给过去
一个人不坏 多出来的勇气

浪漫爱情剧 不停上映
泡一杯咖啡温暖手心
让寂寞的夜变透明
有些情节再熟悉 我也懂得去适应


我可以一个人看
放假不必你的提醒
有时周末泡咖啡厅
我还是像从前爱旅行 虽然少了你背影

今天起 我不需你的鼓励
你和谁在一起 都没关系
我的心 不在你那里
今天起 让回忆一贫如洗
我的日子里 多了些氧气
眼泪都 还给过去
一个人不坏 多出来的勇气

今天起 我不需你的鼓励
你和谁在一起 都没关系
我的心 不在你那里
今天起 让回忆一贫如洗
我的日子里 多了些氧气
眼泪都 还给过去
一个人不坏 多出来的勇气

Saturday, July 3, 2010

Throw me a romance friction!


There comes a time when a gal would start to throw away sci-fi fiction and pick up a romance comedy novel. I had mine when i was in form 4 if m not wrong. It was life changing and it lead me to my today. Haha!
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Well, I for one, think that romantic stories are meant to be shared around, to let people know that life is actually meaningful for a change. Many of us had forgotten the joy of just being happy. Think about it, are you feeling ok physically now? Any aches or pains? If no, then you should be happy and thankful! Embrace that feeling now! Then think again, do you feel loved? Ahhh~ Hard question right? But you are loved.. Maybe by your family or by that nice friend beside you. It's that kind of emotion that made you YOU and made difficult things seem possible!

Romantic friction give us faith and hope. Some may say these so call faith and hope are all false being and misleading as compared to our reality. For me, i do believe in love faith and hope. Heck, i believe in love! Hehe~ Weird thing to be confessing, i know. But this genre of books gives me strength and believe, that no matter how hard the world maybe treating you, you are great and amazing, JUST THE WAY YOU ARE!

The novels may always lead to a happy ending, while real life may not; i like to think it as a process. Sort of like, it's happy for now, then problems come again and then you'll be able to solve it and get through with life. Sometimes it's philological, the POV thing. See life beautifully, then life is. See it as a sad world, you'll even feel sorry for yourself.

Ahh, the many wonders of romantic novels. I hereby stand by romantic frictions and firm my statement that the world is a place of love and kindness, if we are willing to look at it that way. ^^

My collection of romantic friction. ^^

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p/s, I am targeting to improve my chem and pa this coming exam. But, i am really happy my math improved a lot last time! XD