Emotional Checkpoint

Today I was feeling particularly out of form.
It wasn't the weather's doing, perhaps it's just me not having enough rest.
When I came to school, I had a nice chat with a fellow teacher.
We talked about life, we talked about death.
We talked about diseases and we talked about suicide cases.

Whenever I touch on topics like these, some memories of my past surface out.
These memories, may it be bad or good, will still have an impact on me.
I think it's things like that that make us stronger, make us wiser.
And I think that it's okay to be sad, it's okay to feel small sometimes.

I'm glad that I still feel deeply about some particular memories.
Today, I am thankful for my life right now.
Today, I embrace my past and I embrace my emotions.
To the people who have shared a piece of my life's journey with me, just so you know, you are being thought of and I miss you all.
May your souls rest peacefully in heaven.

Signing off
JCG

Melting hard kids

Hey ya pepo!
Short update: I'm now teaching in a secondary school.
Which makes my teaching life waaaaaay more challenging.
Good thing: my voice is not as sore as compared to when I was teaching in primary.
Bad thing: students are waaaaaay harder to control.
What to do?

One of my classes gives me headache the most.
This particular class is a low proficiency class, where students are totally not interested in learning.
They come to school because they have to and they enter class because it's listed down in the curriculum.
What's more, they are more interested in their own stories and personal life to even care about a teacher mumbling in class.
I tried yelling, scolding, talking softly with each and everyone of them...
Well, the only hopes I have is when they grow up, they grow out of this phase.

Today I had a breakthrough.
It's nothing much, but I got them to listen to me, to my stories.
It was just a normal class in which they have to complete assignments using computers.
So there I was sitting at my desk, waiting for them to give me their marks...
When I noticed one of the noisier girls was looking kinda dejected.
Curious as I was, I asked her what's wrong, only to find out that she was given a suspension letter from the school.
After giving her some counselling and help, I then had a relaxing chat with her.
More to my surprise, when I was telling silly stories of my past, more students crowded towards my desk and was sitting on the floor listening to my stories.

Well...
Looks like a good story never fails.
And it looks like, the more you need to help them, show that you care for them...
The more they feel it, the more they understand you...
While this is only the beginning, it feels good to have them be "good students" for a day.
I am totally sure that there's always ups and downs for this particular class, but I am relishing it for a lil bit longer...
I hope that when I'm done teaching them as a sub, they could still remember the efforts I put in to help them be a better person in future.
That's what a teacher's job is right?
To Inspire. :)

Oh ya, another thing I've learnt is, 

if you're eating choc doughnuts, 

remember to bring some fork or sth

elsewise you'll end up with poopy hands...

HAHAHA

Love
JCG

Year of the Hustle

I came across this concept after watching JK Films peeps talking about how 2015 was their year of the hustle.
They explained how they doubled their efforts and their time spent to make better videos and to keep their fans entertained in general, which in return, gives great revenue.
I liked how they introduce this concept and their plans to make everything work.
So I've decided to make 2016 my YEAR OF THE HUSTLE!

I'd summarize my 2015 in one word: confused.
I was pretty lost as I've not set a clear direction as to what I am to do and how am I going to do it.
Being a freshie, I simply don't know what I want to do.
It was a year of finding myself, trying out stuff and generally knocking my head into many things at once.
I made many crazy decisions, all which I had not regretted so far as, well, that's just me finding me. :D

This year, my prime target is to fill my free time doing productive things.
After my tiny fallback last year - not being able to get Masters - I'm now refreshed and back at it again.
Tuitions are now more frequent and I have more 'kangtaos' going on, which is nice.
I'm involved in much more teaching practices and more opportunities.
I'm also trying to applying for Masters yet again, hopefully I can get it this time round.
I hope that this will be the year I get to outgrow myself!

Anyways, I'm still fortunate enough to have time for my friends and some gatherings here and there.
I really appreciate everyone that's in my life now that I'm more occupied and hustling.
I love all of you and thank all of you for your constant support and care.
Let's make 2016 a year worth remembering!

To end this short update, I'd like to introduce my now grown-up chicks!
They are the most adorable thing to me, and they always have a way to make me smile.

Have a nice day pepo!

Smile!

Signing off

JCG

I need a plan

Well, the news about me being rejected by USM Masters was a sudden turn of events.
For whatever reason it was, I didn't particularly feel sad.
I feel kinda glad too in a way cause, I'm not sure if continuing my studies would be a good step for me.
I am now confused and perplexed as to what will my next step be.
Perhaps I should go and look for the Dean and appeal.
OR... I can explore the other options in life?

I believe that life changes happen for a reason.
Perhaps this is the time for me to actually get up and do something...
Even though now I'm actually in a sweet spot, juggling between 2 main (but part time) jobs.
But, the pay is still minimal to the extent that I have to use a magnifying glass to see my paychecks.

I actually have a checklist for myself to self evaluate, and the results are actually more confusing than ever.
See below:
1. Am I satisfied with my current lifestyle? If not, which part?
Yes, but things can be better, paycheck wise.

2. Do I want to work full time (office job)?
No, unless I really have to.

3. How am I going to cover my expenses?
Taking more jobs or earning more money, whichever comes naturally for me.

4. What are my short term plans?
I have a list of things to do lined up for me, but I don't have the means to complete it. I need to get more money. I prefer working on a project of some sort, be it a business idea or just some on the side writing projects or so.

5. How am I going to achieve the above?
... This is where I got stuck.

This is usually where the story comes to a magical twist of events right?
Ugh, I really got to do SOMETHING to change my life.
Well, at least I got one thing down, which is maintaining my healthy daily exercise routine.
I believe, if I have more healthy routines, it would help me in my future too...
C'on Wendy, think...
I need a plan.

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Supp guys, thanks for reading my blog.
It does get personal sometimes, cause I really do need to get it off my chest.
I'm routing for a change in my life.
Trying new things or just switching my current life up a notch.
Hopefully I get to enjoy the things I want.
As for you guys out there, if you're too struggling like me, I hope you have better luck at coming up with solutions to your problems.
I'm sure the solution will pop up someday, soon enough.
Let's keep the fire burning yo!

Pictures of my chickens to keep you energized!

Love
JCG

New blog, new opportunities, new changes!

Yes it does get dull sometimes running through my daily routines.
So I've decided to up it a notch.
Rest assured, I will still be continuing this blog (so many memories here)
But, I'll be also doing side blogging on another more work related blog of mine.
It's called Wendy Teaches Angmo
It is in wordpress, which is something new for me.
It's fairly new so don't judge. haha!

Next, I've just created a Carousell account as advised by my online guru, Ruii Lynn.
Posted my mom's Stone Art!
Check it out here!
*tears (proud daughter)

So these are the changes I've made.
More ways to explore and learn more about myself.
Hopefully you guys are having a fun day too!

Love
JCG

This is a stone art made by mua!

Life in Progress!

Whew, I've been wanting to do some of my personal stuff for some time.
For example, editing videos, blogging, and many more.
One thing I'm proud of myself for doing is that I exercise... Everyday!
But yea, food intake wise, that's another ball game.
Hence, the stagnant of my body weight. Heee...

Anyways, coming back to topic, I have so many things lined up for me.
But yesterday, I had finally closed some of the open files.
I've edited 3 videos in one go!
Which took me for about 3 hours (I've been doing my work while I was waiting for the render)
So, I'm happy of that!

Then I think to myself, when work actually comes, it demands such a big part of you.
Time is of the essence they say, but how do you actually spend it is what makes everything worth while.
Take for example, me writing this blog!
I may not have a million views or likes, but I'm happy that I got to put a small part of my life experience here to share with those of you who checked my blog.
Thank you so much for stalking me, I love you guys. :)

Sometimes, taking time to do your own stuff is satisfaction itself.
Now that I've completed some of my to-dos, I feel much relieved.
No regrets people! That's how I wanna live mah life.
Peace!

Obligated selfie post with new Taiwan boots!

Thanks to my cousins K&K!

This is one of the videos I was talking about. 

My silly friends and me enjoying ourselves at Jason's Bro's Wedding!

Bunch of awesome people they are. :D

Signing off
JCG

Reflect on Weakness

Everybody's got their weakness. 

I do too. 

Today I met with one of my weakness - dominance. 

Note: today's blog is more of a reflection, the tone is more formal than usual.

Prideful as I am, I just realized that I am a very dominant person, especially when I am faced with other people who are more dominant than me. 

This trait is usually hidden behind my 'helpfulness', which I myself didn't realise. 

And this trait had brought me great friends and adventures, at the same time, sad and sorrowful times. 

Today I lost my temper a few times because of this trait, and I felt bad about it. 

I hated losing my temper. 

It's just not me. 

I'm peaceful loving, but not as humble or obedient as I thought. 

I will work on myself to improve myself. 

I will not take interest in other's petty stuff and respect others, even tho I may not agree with them. 

I will learn from my mistakes and avoid falling into the same trap over and over again. 

I need to be better. 

I will let go of things I thought was of importance to others. 

I will not let these things bother me. 

I will leave others to what they may be. 

I need to be a better me. 

Thanks Sheng for helping me to reflect. 

P/S: note to self, recheck exercise schedule. 

Signing off

JCG